beauty

its winter and i think one of the most beautiful things about winter is when in snows enough to completely cover the ground. No grass or leaves showing, just snow. Before all the kids play in it, and before the vehicles traveling make trails, when all you see is a big soft blanket of snow. Its like some one just layd a blanket down across the earth. And the only thing you see is the snow and the animals. Like god was trying to cover all the ugliness in the world that we have created. All the roads, and trash that line the ditches, it all gets covered

Lost

I feel like I'm completely lost as a person. I have no clue who i am or where I'm going. Looking back Ive changed so must, I use to be a good student wit A's n B's but now I'm getting F's and D's. I honestly don't know what happened. I guess i just got tired of always trying and wanting to make people proud of me, but then when i did fail at something id feel like id let them down. So i just stopd trying, stopd caring. I started having a mind set of, if u don't have any goals, you'll never fail, or if you don't have nothing, you have nothing to lose.

But now i see its better to disappoint and let down a few people every once in a while then to not have people believe in you at all. Because I hate who i have became. I'm not this guy at all, i didn't use to b hateful and angry all the time. But how do i go back to the real me? How do i get away from all this anger that completely consumes me?