Lost

I feel like I'm completely lost as a person. I have no clue who i am or where I'm going. Looking back Ive changed so must, I use to be a good student wit A's n B's but now I'm getting F's and D's. I honestly don't know what happened. I guess i just got tired of always trying and wanting to make people proud of me, but then when i did fail at something id feel like id let them down. So i just stopd trying, stopd caring. I started having a mind set of, if u don't have any goals, you'll never fail, or if you don't have nothing, you have nothing to lose.

But now i see its better to disappoint and let down a few people every once in a while then to not have people believe in you at all. Because I hate who i have became. I'm not this guy at all, i didn't use to b hateful and angry all the time. But how do i go back to the real me? How do i get away from all this anger that completely consumes me?